is it easier to forgive or to forget?

Had a special breakfast with a special person this morning so I had to get out all my most colourful dishes. It made me realize that I hardly ever entertain anymore. Used to be we had parties all the time. For a long time we were the only ones in our group of friends who really had the space because our parties always involved jamming with instruments and singing and drinking and smoking. I do miss the parties but not cleaning up the morning after. Especially my lungs.

I often miss having a yard and a garden to root around in. I used to love setting a tea table in amongst the flowers and fig trees in my old yard but now I am a deck girl. Decks have some advantages over yards. You can create your own garden, which I have yet to do, and then there is the naked part. I love being naked, in the sun, on my deck. The thing I miss the most about having a yard is grass, walking on it not cutting it.

How about you?
Do you still party like you used to?